Actually i wasn't intend to post. but i seem to have some time today. Why? that's because i ignored my moral studies and my ethics' homework. It is reluctant because it was the first week of the semester, it shouldn't be that busy but it is not that we got our holidays to ourselves either, it was all dedicated to uni's items. The semester started quite rough. First is the MQA requirements which blow some of us right off, still swaying. The thing about this MQA thing is that they (the authorities) themselves are confused and thus making us students, the more blur that we can make within ourselves. I was with the BKA issue and others was with the malaysian studies thing. For me, i received a call saying that i was suppose to get them done during the sem 5, i was like " is it? no one told me before." quite disappointed with the imu management at that time because if i were to take it during that time, it would be a problem for me as it was quite free that time. During that sem, before it even start, i was already preparing myself to be ask to take up BKA (which is malay) but we were told that everyone was exempted. How Nice! so i didn't bother to ask nor clarify. yet these thing happen when we are super busy with everything. After this week, i think i got a good solution sorted out after being a pest to the AAD's staff. I guess they even remember us without us explaining. We already haunted them too much.
Regarding the new semester, aside from getting busy with the MQA requirements, moral studies, the usual classes getting real packed, worrying about where to go during electives. What bother me the most is the future. What i really want to do next time? It seems vague to begin with. First of all, i am not a decision maker of my life last time, so it is quite hard for me to make my move now and secondly, my results are not appealing that people would offer me jobs beforehand, so i am in dilemma. All my lecturers said that we should have at least 3 years experience in medical-surgical ward. So that settle my problem in the area i suppose to work in next time. But the issues now is where? Malaysia, or Singapore. I wanted to work in Singapore maybe due to my high school friends and the money currency i am going to get there. But i don't think they would like my kind of results and they are super the competitive so expected workload is there already. Malaysia 's private hospital is also a challenge itself. So yea, i couldn't decide. Both sides, have advantage and disadvantage but none appeals me more than another. So i guess i am sticking with "balloting" with myself again.
After experiencing three years of nursing student life, i often get asked what actually nurses do. Although i am going through professionalism, i understand what nurses do but then their job scope is vague to be able to explain to people what we are exactly doing unless they do it themselves. i bet after the experience they will be like me. Other than those fancy theories we are doing, i agree that nothing in nursing is unique but it is unique in its own way. I understand why people don't appreciate that. First of all, we are helping people to be independent again, and in order to do that we need to teach the basics things that they already knew, that's why nothing is special in nursing, everyone can do it. What we do is not special at all, but what we do to make that happen is the amazing part and this is what i haven't mastered yet. Nurses suppose to be the people to join all other professions but yet being looked down by other health profession. That's bad. I don't like that. I would like to describe nurses as the parents of the patient, we understand them, we love them, we guide them when they need help, support them, and advocate for them. This is what i understand from the three years. But when i being ask what is nurses doing? i still can't tell. Cause it is vague. So if u guys out there happen to be reading this, i apologize, i am confuse myself why i even wanted to write this part. ignore them if it bothers you.
Yesterday, my batch NU108, went to visit our preceptor puan kasma. It was an interesting trip. We laughed, reminisced old times, pulling each others' leg. It was fun. I guess this is why we are different from other groups. We are always full of live. We are the group that love food ( extreme side ) even our preceptor prepared the snacks in big tupperware even though her children and maid say it is nicer if you prepare them in small porcelain or glass containers. She insisted that we will surely finish them in seconds and she need to refill them every second, no way she is doing that. and it is true that we finish in seconds and it is in a large tupperware, imagine that! we are monsters and that thanks to the traffic jam. We chit chat, talked about old times, even talk about next time are we going to visit her or not (as well as other preceptors) and when we graduate where to celebrate ( food is all we think of), and when we get married, all crazy things. It was good. We will definitely miss Puan Kasma and her way of chasing us in the wards.
After the trip, all cars went to their way, some went to reminisce some more in cafes, but out car decided to picnic in the park waiting for the lunar eclipse ( at that time, it was 4 hours before). For the four hours, we went slightly crazy or wild because of the clouds blocking the moon. We sang random songs, play games, create weird stories using the aeroplanes, stars, and clouds. Ending up lying on the ground capturing the "RED" moments, brain washing ourselves that we captured the red moon when it is not even red in our cameras, cursing them afterwards. It was a Fun experience after all. Weird but Memorable. =)
Okay after this post i shall rest and then continue my work. T.T back to reality.
