END of RAYA!

Tomorrow going back to SEREMBAN!

hmmm, the tiredness don't seems to go away!

Not because i done much, i think i done too much repeated stuff ( u know what i mean if u are around me all the time)

All well, at least i rested.

It time to back to work!

Back to serve people!

Passion

hmmm

i always wanted to really understand this word.

I realised that this is the most important thing and it is lacking in me.

I sometimes think that maybe i only lack of passion in some things.

But as i get older i am not that passionate to any of the things around me.

I become very NOT ambitious.

No passion in everything i do.

that's why there no much improvement in my progress

Although i realise that , when did i lost it. and how can i get it back?

Paediatric Ward (medical)

Inspired to write this post after reading my senior Venus's post about this ward.

hmmmm actually i didn't intend to write about this week's experience because i don't really like it.

After reading the blog post, i found somebody that had similar thoughts about this ward. not all but almost all.

It is not that i don't like children. It is jus that i forgot how to play with children. Recallin, Last time i was sort of "PRO" in dealing with children, but as time past, the lesser the children population around me. Things Change. I expect a 12 years old to be more mature. I expect children to tell me what they wan instead of me guessing it. Oh well, i need to face the truth too, i am old and rusty now.

Just like what venus said. i do nothing but to take vital signs and wait for another round. and play with newborns ( which are easier to please) Other than that i doesn't feel like getting involve with toddlers nor children. Scream is not the scary part, Dunno how their brain works is the Problem. They doesn't need to catch a breath when crying, when feeling discomfort and THey will do whatever they can to get u out of their sight. but when they are feeling fine as they are healing, totally changed, clinged on u and wanted to play with u. I am confused.

I don't think i am like that when i am sick. I am shy all the way.

I think i need more time to adapt instead of only two weeks.

Sigh, With parents beside them 24-7, makes me dunno how to interact with the child more openly/casually. There is barrier from my side. U know la, child is the most precious thing for the parents.however, those i seen in the ward this week is harsh to their child. Forcing them to drink water. hitting (softly) on the cheeks for not drinking. Some didn't show love to their child. giving maggi and keropok to 18 month old child. OMG O-O. dunno what to say. This particular parent i should say is that she had too many children until she do not appreciates them at all.

Some parents really love the children until the child can do anything to him (father) for example combing his short hair making it into ponytail. What a scene. Can't imagine my dad to let me do that. Too little discipline i should say to this family.

Hopefully next week in the same ward i'll be more active. and get my case. and be more brave to face both the parents and child.

CHEERS!

Taken from Venus's blog:

"Paediatric Ward by venus

One week is all it takes to kill me but I still have two more weeks with these living thing we call 'children'. That means by the end of two weeks, I'll be worse than dead. I dread vital signs soooo much. I just have to walk near them and they will start screaming. Putting the thermometer under their arms was like stabbing them continuously with a jagged edge dagger. Taking their blood pressure is as if I'm breaking their bones and crushing their flesh. So what do I do after vital signs as 9am? Nothing. You want me to go talk to them? Play with them? Please...I just want the ward to be quiet until the next vital signs.

What's the most upsetting event? Parent thinking I'm tormenting her precious 11th child. I'm like...gimme a break. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm not going to be gentle and gugu gaga with your child when she's all violent and abusive. Medication has to be administered. Then? Tak payah give? Who's gonna give? Doctors? Right. You slowly wait la. Then ask why can't discharge home, why haven't recover, why this why that. Yee...over protective parents make me...what's the word? Loya. Yeah, that's the word. This is one heck of a ward I find tougher than psychiatric ward. Children...argh!!!

What is my consolation? The gay doctor is in my ward! Yay! I was thrilled to see his oily hair after a year until I realize he is gay no more. Hmm...people changed huh? He is more funny when he's gay. Lol...no names here. Another interesting thing is to watch a lady administering asthma puff to her baby with a chamber. The 6 month old child lying oblivious on the soft bed. The lady jab the chamber abruptly onto her tiny face, sent her frail body sinking into the bed. Her tiny hands were all over the place. Lol..."

Facebook | 几分钟电话里的电话，你有什么感想？

高中：

我：妈，没钱了，打点钱吧。妈：多少？我：200爸：给300吧，钱多放点，当心身体。我：那我上课了，早点给我打钱。第二天，账上多了500快。

大一：

我：妈，我想家了。妈：啥时候回来？爸：缺钱了吧，爸给你打。我：没，不习惯，就是想家了。爸妈：恩，放假早点回来，早点买票，当心身体。爸后来告诉我，打完电话，妈哭了，非怪我爸，当年任由我自己选了这个不熟悉的城市。

大二 大三

妈：你很久没打电话了，忙什么呢？我：事情多啊，没时间哎。

爸：***想你了，她一个人在家，没事多打打电话。我：知道了，最近忙呢，有时间再打。爸：什么时候的车，回头来接你。我：不用了，今天留在县城了，再同学家吃饭。妈：我做了一桌子的菜呢，咋又不回来了。我：难得回家和同学聚聚嘛。妈：你也难得回家，我们半年才看到你一次啊。终于到家了，吃饭时间已经过了，饿得很，冰箱里满满的菜，几乎都没动过，老妈说，你不在，你爸喝酒都没有心思。

实习：

我：妈，实习太苦了，我要回家。妈：回家，歇着，养得起。爸：回家，你爸还能干活呢，连你都养不起，我白混了。他们的话，让我很没志气的跑回家躲了很多天。

实习到东北：

妈：最近还忙啊，吃饭了没有啊。我：很忙呢，随便吃了点面。妈：不能光吃面，要有营养的，哪怕到外面点个菜吃。我：恩，知道了。过年回家，院子里晒了N多干货，香肠，家里N多腌制的鱼肉。老妈说，这些不烦神，直接就可以烧了吃了，比吃面条好多了。她冬天手都是开裂的，那些腌肉，都是用盐细细码好的。

现在：

我：妈，等我稳定了你出来玩吧，我现在有钱了。妈：你能有几个钱，外面花费那么贵，省着点。我：我真有钱了，你来也有地方住。妈：我还得照顾你爸呢。老爸是离不开老妈的，我知道，老妈永远是个操劳的命。

每天一个电话，就那么几句话，以至于我觉得老妈都烦了。前天太忙几天没给家里电话，昨天打回去，刚响，老妈就接了，问冻着没，问吃饱没，问累着没？我以为每天都有电话，没有那么多话说的，其实她一直在等我的电话。

每次回家，桌上总有那么些个你喜欢的菜。每次聊天，他们总是会问问，吃饱没，穿暖没，累着没，而我们很少或者根本没有问过。他们曾今是天，说一不二，你从不能违抗。可是现在，他们都听你的了，你说什么都是对的了。因为他们老了，他们开始寻求依靠了，而他们这辈子，拥有的只有我们。多打打电话吧，三分钟的时间真的没有那么难挤出来。可以和爱人一天一个小时，也请给他们三分钟的时间吧。问问今天忙些啥，问问今天吃写啥，就像当年他们问我们的一样，他们不会像我们那样，觉得烦了。

记得有一次跟朋友聊天，朋友说："就按我一年回家5次算，保佑咱爸妈能活到100岁也就还能见他们200多次，真少！"我努力地连搬指头带思考地想了想，确实！

看到这篇日志，我默默流泪，所以就转了。不是我多愁善感，是咱欠爸妈的太多，太多... ...



BBQ thanks to the chefs!

BIG thanks to CALVIN, SU YEE, AMY and the rest who work hard for the food making process especially the charcoal and smoke part. GREAT WORK!

PICTURES will show u the nice moments of the night!

I took pictures with RAchel's lovely camera, makes me wan to buy one. sadly no CASH!

1st week in SCN~

Haha. i am back in KL again! but only for the weekends nia.

After that got to get back and deal with a new setting. this time is gonna deal with kids.. hmmm i dunno whether can handle them or not le?

Oh well let's get back to where i been to in this week!

SCN special care newborns.

newborns are everywhere.

There are three rooms for newborns.

1st incubator babies which is jus born.

2nd room, the most stable babies.

3rd room, phototherapy room for jaundice babies.

This is the first time i handle babies. the last time i guess is when i was still very young holding my sisters... hmm doesn't consider know how to handle cos i am a big baby at that time too.

Babies is actually very easy to take care. because they only had a few concerns. COLD, HUNGRY, POOPOO, PAIN, DISCOMFORT And the only way to tell us adults are to cry!

It is annoying in the sense that every baby had different type or should i say different sound of cry. Some have High pitch especially preterm babies and it is very irritating to the ear u know and when they really cry very hard it is very painful to hear.

Only one baby gave a cry that i from the day i live until now i think it is a normal baby cry. maybe because she is older.

Today a lot of baby cry. First of all because they were being 'poke' by doctors for blood taking. So when we are trying to bath them, they were shaking and crying continously upon touch. So pity them. Next thing is that the baby is on tube feeding so they feel very hungry as nothing goes thru the mouth and goes straight to the stomach. So need to feed them a bit of milk in the mouth to make them stop crying.

Holding the baby is so nice but they were so heavy to hold unless u are holding preterm one. They are so soft and delicate and very nice to touch ESPECIALLY the hair!!! OMG love the hair and FACE. but some babies do have peeling skin which is slightly rough but overall is SO CUTE with the eyes big big and hands and feet small small. LOVES them.

Compared with my friends experience in other wards me with the babies is the best!!!!