End of Postings in Seremban.

Actually i dunno where to start the emotional part of this day that i have waited for so long.

It have been more than 2 years of stay there in seremban. The time never stops during those days. We are rushing from bj to seremban everytime, settling and start work, then end work then pack bags back to bj and exam and sem break and then the cycle jus repeat itself, never have thought of it to end so soon.

To be honest, on the day itself i never felt the emotional rush. However when uncle say goodbye and the way he shakes my hand, i felt it. I am leaving this place for good. When i come back home at bj, the pieces of memories there, kept flashing back. Although my nursing journey in IMU haven't end, but the memories as a group N108 in the clinicals have ended. Just in a day! I have never really appreciate the existence of the people around me. But today, i am proud and happy that i have chosen nursing at IMU and meet these amazing people of N108, the best colleagues ever. I wouldn't forget the brithday outings we had, the amazing food trip to ipoh and cameron, the time we went to pn kasma, pn saedah's house, ashraf's house, the weird and funny jokes moments, the time we have lots of assignments to write and all camping out late, the awesome dinners and pasar malam. I just couldn't forget each and every postings. Although i felt regret cos never got the chance to work with everyone in n108 but those that i work with are totally amazing enough to say i wish next time my colleagues would be like u guys.

As a student, i guess HTJS really moulded us into a better nurse with a lot of experience. There is no other place than government hospital that would give us more experience as a nurse and as a person in life. There are all sort of patients. I couldn't forget those weird and funny patients whom i attended. The staff although they are not friendly, we learned how to be humble and treat them very nicely even though they being mean to us. I learn to be "not easily tempered" now.

Although it had come to an end, i still have a dilemma for my nursing elective. Hai` that's my weakness, cannot make decision for myself. I have no idea what i am interested in. I guess everyone would give me this answer " SEriousLy, u sure?" I always thought that i would know what i would be interested in after the specialty postings, however i guess my interest level is static and the same for all. Really a headache. Now i would start blaming my childhood. Its been like this for very very long time already. But i believe that i won't regret in which ever part i will chose in the future cos my acceptance level is very high, but i truly hope that i can make the decision this time since this is my career something i gonna spent the rest of my life doing it.

Crazy as it seems, my student life just left with one more semester after the the semester 7 exam and after sem 8 i will be on my own. Can't believe that cos i am not that type like to be alone, i love company but i guess its time for me to move on to the next stage of my life. Jia You Valerie, new future and adventure awaits u. It might be very interesting and challenging, you will never know!

Cooking Demonstration

Ipoh- tanjung rambutan posting ended just a split second!

It is just so short.

So meaningful.

But i am too tired to comment yet.

Thanks to two assignments! i really go all out this time.

Time management VALERIE!! remember that next time.

There is only one sentence to describe the whole posting ( 2 weeks)

People with mental illness is not that scary, they may be shouting, saying nonsense, saying things that we don't understand but think twice, don't we also do the same? So conclusion, don't be afraid of them. Show empathy. And they love COMPANY!! and they are sometimes nicer than the real society, with innocent hearts!

Paediatric Ward (medical)

Inspired to write this post after reading my senior Venus's post about this ward.

hmmmm actually i didn't intend to write about this week's experience because i don't really like it.

After reading the blog post, i found somebody that had similar thoughts about this ward. not all but almost all.

It is not that i don't like children. It is jus that i forgot how to play with children. Recallin, Last time i was sort of "PRO" in dealing with children, but as time past, the lesser the children population around me. Things Change. I expect a 12 years old to be more mature. I expect children to tell me what they wan instead of me guessing it. Oh well, i need to face the truth too, i am old and rusty now.

Just like what venus said. i do nothing but to take vital signs and wait for another round. and play with newborns ( which are easier to please) Other than that i doesn't feel like getting involve with toddlers nor children. Scream is not the scary part, Dunno how their brain works is the Problem. They doesn't need to catch a breath when crying, when feeling discomfort and THey will do whatever they can to get u out of their sight. but when they are feeling fine as they are healing, totally changed, clinged on u and wanted to play with u. I am confused.

I don't think i am like that when i am sick. I am shy all the way.

I think i need more time to adapt instead of only two weeks.

Sigh, With parents beside them 24-7, makes me dunno how to interact with the child more openly/casually. There is barrier from my side. U know la, child is the most precious thing for the parents.however, those i seen in the ward this week is harsh to their child. Forcing them to drink water. hitting (softly) on the cheeks for not drinking. Some didn't show love to their child. giving maggi and keropok to 18 month old child. OMG O-O. dunno what to say. This particular parent i should say is that she had too many children until she do not appreciates them at all.

Some parents really love the children until the child can do anything to him (father) for example combing his short hair making it into ponytail. What a scene. Can't imagine my dad to let me do that. Too little discipline i should say to this family.

Hopefully next week in the same ward i'll be more active. and get my case. and be more brave to face both the parents and child.

CHEERS!

Taken from Venus's blog:

"Paediatric Ward by venus

One week is all it takes to kill me but I still have two more weeks with these living thing we call 'children'. That means by the end of two weeks, I'll be worse than dead. I dread vital signs soooo much. I just have to walk near them and they will start screaming. Putting the thermometer under their arms was like stabbing them continuously with a jagged edge dagger. Taking their blood pressure is as if I'm breaking their bones and crushing their flesh. So what do I do after vital signs as 9am? Nothing. You want me to go talk to them? Play with them? Please...I just want the ward to be quiet until the next vital signs.

What's the most upsetting event? Parent thinking I'm tormenting her precious 11th child. I'm like...gimme a break. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm not going to be gentle and gugu gaga with your child when she's all violent and abusive. Medication has to be administered. Then? Tak payah give? Who's gonna give? Doctors? Right. You slowly wait la. Then ask why can't discharge home, why haven't recover, why this why that. Yee...over protective parents make me...what's the word? Loya. Yeah, that's the word. This is one heck of a ward I find tougher than psychiatric ward. Children...argh!!!

What is my consolation? The gay doctor is in my ward! Yay! I was thrilled to see his oily hair after a year until I realize he is gay no more. Hmm...people changed huh? He is more funny when he's gay. Lol...no names here. Another interesting thing is to watch a lady administering asthma puff to her baby with a chamber. The 6 month old child lying oblivious on the soft bed. The lady jab the chamber abruptly onto her tiny face, sent her frail body sinking into the bed. Her tiny hands were all over the place. Lol..."

BBQ thanks to the chefs!

BIG thanks to CALVIN, SU YEE, AMY and the rest who work hard for the food making process especially the charcoal and smoke part. GREAT WORK!

PICTURES will show u the nice moments of the night!

I took pictures with RAchel's lovely camera, makes me wan to buy one. sadly no CASH!

1st week in SCN~

Haha. i am back in KL again! but only for the weekends nia.

After that got to get back and deal with a new setting. this time is gonna deal with kids.. hmmm i dunno whether can handle them or not le?

Oh well let's get back to where i been to in this week!

SCN special care newborns.

newborns are everywhere.

There are three rooms for newborns.

1st incubator babies which is jus born.

2nd room, the most stable babies.

3rd room, phototherapy room for jaundice babies.

This is the first time i handle babies. the last time i guess is when i was still very young holding my sisters... hmm doesn't consider know how to handle cos i am a big baby at that time too.

Babies is actually very easy to take care. because they only had a few concerns. COLD, HUNGRY, POOPOO, PAIN, DISCOMFORT And the only way to tell us adults are to cry!

It is annoying in the sense that every baby had different type or should i say different sound of cry. Some have High pitch especially preterm babies and it is very irritating to the ear u know and when they really cry very hard it is very painful to hear.

Only one baby gave a cry that i from the day i live until now i think it is a normal baby cry. maybe because she is older.

Today a lot of baby cry. First of all because they were being 'poke' by doctors for blood taking. So when we are trying to bath them, they were shaking and crying continously upon touch. So pity them. Next thing is that the baby is on tube feeding so they feel very hungry as nothing goes thru the mouth and goes straight to the stomach. So need to feed them a bit of milk in the mouth to make them stop crying.

Holding the baby is so nice but they were so heavy to hold unless u are holding preterm one. They are so soft and delicate and very nice to touch ESPECIALLY the hair!!! OMG love the hair and FACE. but some babies do have peeling skin which is slightly rough but overall is SO CUTE with the eyes big big and hands and feet small small. LOVES them.

Compared with my friends experience in other wards me with the babies is the best!!!!

SEREMBAN TIME AGAIN!

BORING!!! yet the most worthy place to go for LEARNING.

1) Looking Forward to there?

Nope.

2) Isn't this time u will be going for speciality posting?

YES. interesting.

3) Then why not interested then?

ERm, i guess being an observer not that interesting.

4) What u like about the posting at the moment?

i guess the OT gowns i going need to wear in the SCN and labour ward. It is nice to wear something that the anaesthesia and surgeons are wearing. and something other than my white uniform. hmm but i don't like the colour, cos it is dull grey. i like bright colours like light blue and light purple.

Let's talk about the deparments that i am going.

( this is what i think before i see the ward. shall post on what it is the real feeling about each ward later hopefully got time to do so plus if i am not lazy)

First up i will be going to SCN

Which stands for Special Care Newborns!!!

NEWbornsss... scary to be the place to go u know, they are so fragile, so small, and delicate, easily slip of ur hands as their skin is super soft ( that's what my lecturer say la, haven't hold newborn yet)

Should be interesting seeing incubators ( boxes that baby will stay in) and putting our two hands into the box and do everything for them that way.. hmm interesting right... not easy u know.. the movement are so restricted making me so cacat. ( why i know cos tried on our skills lab incubator.

Nice thing about this ward too, i will be wearing the gown i mentioned earlier with CROCS shoe (not real but still nice to wear!!!!) !!!

Look forward to do assessment for the newborns, reflexes is so amazing!

" When u are born, u know nothing but SUCK!"

Next up,

Medical and Surgical Paediatrics WARd

Where all the children are...

Hmmm it seems fun but then i don't like to play with nor watch sick children and force them to take medications which it SEEEMS VEry THe HARD!!

Plus parents are always very concern about the children, being incompetent now is not very nice and hard to make them feel that it is safe to handle their children..

So we'll see how it goes in the ward. Hopefully NICE!

After paeds,

All is about WOMEN during PREGNANCY. or shall i put it all about REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM!!

First will go to LABOUR room,

hmm not fascinating, cos will see all the BLOODy SHOW! plus all the shouting , crying , tension and STRESS!

But still look forward, because never seen a real live giving birth scene so YEA look forward although it is disgusting in some point or another.

We had great fun in cosplaying it in the skills lab so i think not that bad in the real situation. How bad could it be? Who knows?

After labour roon i'll be heading to gynaecology deparment..

hmmm people may wonder is the patient there all pregnant?

NOpe. This is a ward for people who had problems with reproductive problems, ranging from Amenorrhea to Ovarian cancer.

Will see different side of women, where more sad case will be in here Cause ONLY PROBLEMS come here.

It is more of what we do in the Med-Surgical Ward.

It is more of How u handle Grief and history taking. Challenges are to handle EMOTIONs. Why? Is hard to tell the women that she can't get pregnant or u need abortion. (for example)

My last stop will be in Maternity Ward.

hmmm, this is about monitoring, health education...breastfeeding (challenge, we need to teach ppl when we ourselves cannot feel the problems that they might be facing.. hard to empathize)

Not very interesting but still Something new so wait and see. might have something interesting appear!

AFTER SEREMBAN, We will be heading to IPOH, Mental health and psychiatric WARD. hmm the MOST interesting of all.

Experiencing something that we never gonna experience in Seremban hospital.

Hopefully i don't get too high with the activities there.

Institutional nursing, first time, so i wonder how it likes. I might Like it. or Hate it.

I finally tried banana leaves ( the best one somemore)

Thanks to praveena, the introducer.

It is a place that is look more like a house style eating area.

The workers there are very friendly.

This is the first i tried indian food.

and i am not a person who likes the spices especially SPICY part.

But truthfully, it TASTES damn good.

but i think due to i don't usually don't take Spicy food plus that my food doesn't mixes alot..

my stomach seems to fight with me..

i eat damn slow.. eat two full mouth of rice, i need to wait for my tongue to accomodate the spicy.

it doesn't spice when u eat at first but when u eat a lot the hotter it gets..

i like the currry... plus the chicken and mutton but the mutton really kills me, SO HOT yet so nice!!!.

hmmm and at night, we went to a place called "da shu xia" (UNder the Big Tree)

Wow, the hokkien mee , lor mee, fried mee hoon, NOT BAD eh.

next time will try to eat there again but erm due to it is at night saw a rat... maybe next time will taupao only... but aiya rats in malaysia is inevitable especially beside hawker stall.

Nice food marathon...

this morning my friend somemore cook spaghetti for me...

So xin fu...

Thanks to kk..

But since when i go back to my own home, the food hmm not good dy..

i try to cook dang yuan (not man made, frozen one) then i cook too long. it became so fat and sloppy..

hai~ still need to finish by myself, " stupid me"

huo gai.

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TI-RATANA (head lice Eradication!)

Updates!

First week staying at seremban.
Lots happen there.
First it is the house we stayed. SUPER nice to stay in compared to last time where we need to share the place with rats. ewww. so now it is haven't and stayin wif super nice Uncle.
Things had been busy in the ward.
Last day of the ward was my first time seeing a patient dying in front of me.
It was sad.
Especially when u saw the whole process.
It is called "AN LE" die i suppose.
It is a bit saddening when i told the doctor " could u look at the patient, she seems to not breathing"
I know she had cheynes stroke respiration ( which is breath for a while, stop, then breath again) but that one was a bit long. plus she vomited and with cold extremities, something is wrong.
and the doctor jus treat me like the family member, screen us. and told me, " okay this patient is DNR - do not resusitate. so we can't do much for this patient, we can't do CPR all that stuff. do u understand? if we resusitate her she will be suffering."
of cos i understand. but don't treat me like the patient's family le.
It made me sad. it made me feel " hello she is still alive and u told me this?"
So it was clear that she was DNR case. So i jus clean up my stuff and leave the patient.
After i finish cleaning, my fren told me that the patient had died. my fren even cried.
i on the other only feeling sad and feel like a tear in the heart.
We clean up the patient. unknowingly, i felt like there is a smile in her face. am i hallucinating?
yea, i am. at that point it made me recall back that she was still moving her hands so vigorously the other day. now. silent. everything is so silent. It is that calm for one to die? i am still in dilemma.
Okay i think this will be a full stop to this event.

since i come back from seremban for the weekend. i suppose i should update my blog on certain topics before seremban postings:
1) chap goh mei dinner
2) MAB and kidney center visiting
3) Poster presentation.

Cameron Highland. (written)

That day we all woke up @ 4am and departed at 4.20pm

Everyone in the car is sleepy.

As Some of us didn't sleep last night.

I sleep late last night and wake up at 3.30.

However this doesn't make me sleepy.

But instead, very HIGH.

I guess it is excited.

So we singing in the car. chatting. talking nonsense.

We are quite hungry as the car move until half way thru the journey.

ALong the way we stopped by for toileting.

This is the pic outside the LOO.

After the toileting, we continue journey with faster speed.

As we are all hungry.

We took some pics in the car. when we saw got some sunlight.

Camwhoring.

We stopped by ipoh for breakfast.

We ate dimsum for breakfast. Sorry no pics.

But it taste ok.

My fren say it is newly renovated but the taste is not as good as b4.

Oh.. I wished i could taste the old taste.

but all well

The cha siu bao still very nice though.

but sadly i was restricted to makan one piece nia.

Heading towards CAmeron.

Along the way i bit high.

Ended my head out in the window.

I purposely change seat with maria for the seat so that i could put my head out and won't be banged by the cars and lorries.

Had great fun playing with it.

First Stop at the Boh Tea centre.

Had a Scroll around its factory.

Nice smells of tea leaves everywhere.

A lot of ppl is here.

CROWDED.

Ate an icecream here.

Nice View.

Jus too bad too many ppl until no where to sit.

Plus not enough fresh air to spare.

Went to bukit binchang.

Hehe. hopefully i didn't mention the wrong bukit name.

Got a part of the bridge it broken.

Had hard time crossing it.

Climbing the hill was tough. it was damn high.

At the peak, we wanted to go further but there was two guy saying that there is all tanah runtuh. Not advisable to go.

Cause it will flood ur whole leg plus spoil our beautiful shoe.

So we went back down the hill

Cross back the hole.

We had lunch after the hiking.

We ate at May Flower.

Nice restaurant.

Wif Nice food.

After that we went to the highest BOH tea area.

Less PPL

Took 1 hour to reach up there.

Wow. these really kills me more.

I panted a lot to climb this mountain.

But WORTH it!!!

The view is Breathtaking!!!

Nest we headed to strawberry park and this house.

This house is actually what we wanted to book.

but FULL house

So we asked permission to have a look.

OH MY GOD>

So damn nice.

Nice view, nice garden.

Nice house.

Jus that it is a bit small.

Love their swing.

NExt Morning.

Went to strawberry Park.

Didn't pick own strawberry but ate their dessert.

Stawberry ice.

Nice.

Made from real strawberry. I can taste the seed within me.

There are VEGES!!

We bought a lot!!!

I bought one butterhead lettuce.

hehe

Dare not buy alot cos later cannot finish.

Went to market after the farm.

Bought corn, ubi, and dried food.

After that went back to ipoh. and ate lunch and dinner at cheras.

Then go home.

CAMERON HIGHLAND~

The PIC of all.

Artistic.

Nice.

This is also not bad.

Cool Pic.

Eye Bandaging & Eye Irrigation

Had lab practice today.

Learn how to bandage eye plus irrigate the eye.

Had lots of fun doing the two procedure.

Now let the pictures do their part.

Recently i found a picture editing software online.

So i did some effects on the pictures taken today.

It seems great.

Love it.

For ur info, there no such bandage above. i simply do one.

My lecturer say there is no such bandage.

I guess all those movie and drama is fake then.

I guess maybe last got but now already no use this kind of eye bandage.