Finally...

A level had come to the end.
i had to start a new life and a new journey or maybe a new chapter of my life.
It is kinda insecure just like wat stella said.
Before the A level, i had been demoralised really demoralised first time for my life. Maybe this is wat one may had to been thru pass thru and experience it.

The prelims, is the worst nightmare to me. I think no one can understand this feelin of cannot get wat u wan as it is way too high for me to reach. Singapore gave me a whole new experience of life. I , valerie, had never failed in my whole life except once or twice becos of "Pikachu" ( my chms frens will know ) and a open book test. These two i didn't relli get the "fail" feelin that i should feel becos everyone is feelin that way and had the same score as u do so there is nothin to fear of or be demoralised of... but this yr JC 2 realli gave me a full blast. Mid yr i should say i got the same old results but i didn't relli sad because i didn't realli put heart into it or should i say it jus another exam to me. i tell myself there is still chance for me like the prelims, n the As. But who knows i work hard for my prelims but it come out the same thing. is it fate? or am i not hardworking enough. and this is the time i feel super duper sad. i kept on blame myself and cry and cry. that's all i can do. i reflected am i that stupid or just its not my luck. i wanna talk to someone who can understand what i feel. but no one relli wan to hear my thoughts. all i can hear are " you can do it la" " a level will be easier than this" " have faith in urself"" be confident" " i oso like that wat" " u won't fail one la if u like that then how bout me?" " don't be sad u have improve although it is still in the same grade" i became even upset because i cannot not face the truth. Then i cry cry again , felt that there is no hope in me. i was thinking of giving up as my parents said if u must work hard if not u will watse ur 18 yrs. i am really scared and intimidated.

Then i talk to myself , did i make the right choice? maybe maynot. Lastly i come to a conclusion, the A's will be my last chance and my only chance, if realii i cannot get the satisfied result then its really fate. i did my best. So doin the A's i only had one thing that is to sit the exam and that's it. if lucky then i get through this gate if not then i will pursue another path. THat's life isn't it? There is nothin to be afraid of now. Its over. And new Chapter of my life is waiting for me.

Life is life

Life is life, even though it’s tough,
You gotta live with it, even though it’s rough.

It’s a gift, given to us from up above,
So don’t use it for hatred, but use it for love.

Life is the most precious, and valuable gift of all,
So don’t throw it away, by jumping of a wall.

I know it myself, life can be hard,
So if your looking for help, just speak to God.

Life’s of too great value to be thrown away,
So thank God for letting you live – every, single day.

It doesn’t matter if you’re a boy or a girl,
No matter how you kill yourself, you’ve got a date with Lucifer.

You never know when your life will come to an end,
So live your life happily, get a family, and a best friend.

Would you rather have lovely granddaughters, and grandsons? ,
Or kill yourself now, and burn in hell when Dooms day comes.

Live everyday as if it would be your last,
Be kind, happy, and have a blast.

Life is life

Beautiful GIrls Lyrics

歌手：sean kingston 专辑：eyes above water
R! Sean Kingston!

Chorus:You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 1:See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Coz we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
Sean Kingston
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

Refrain:See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...My baby is driving me crazy
(Repeat Chorus)

Verse 2:It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we will see each other ( see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
(Repeat Refrain and Chorus)

Verse 3:Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin
'Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

Stand by Me (by Shayne Ward) My favourite Song

Nothing's impossible, nothing's unreachable

When I am weary, you make me stronger

This love is beautiful, so unforgettable

I feel no winter cold, when were together

When were together..

Chorus

Will you stand by me, hold on and never let me go

Will you stand by me

With you I know I'll be alone, when the story gets told

When day turns into night, I look into you're eyes

I see my future now, all the world in its wonder

This love won't fade away, and through the hardest days

I'll never question us, you are the reason

My only reason..

Chorus

Will you stand by me, hold on and never let me go

Will you stand by me

With you I know I'll be alone, when the story gets told

I am blessed to find what I need

In a world loosing hope you're my only belief

You make things right, every time after time..

Chorus

Will you stand by me, hold on and never let me go

Will you stand stand by me

Will I be a part of you're life, when the story gets told

Stand by me, stand by me, won't you stand

Stand by me, stand by me……

NEWater Event ( service learning )

2nd of july - wonderful youthday hol but i ended up in NEWater VC after saw CALVIN's online msg.
OMG had to reached there at 7.25am my goodness...thank god RONALE was willing to send me there ( actually i force him to haha) ... cos early in the morning there is no transportation that can bring me there (cos no buses can reached unless their shuttle bus but early in the morning wher got one... take taxi wow no way i gonna waste so much money to go there)

When we reached we realised that we are earlier than most of the workers there...haha... that's the reason we all are hungry monster...all come with no breakfast!!! had to ' REN' until lunch time ....oh no!...

Ok after listening to a briefing given by CALvin, we proceed to our respective stations and wait for the group of primary five kids to arrive our station... Our station was called CHARADE. it is a game where the kids must act or draw out the words on the cards and if they dunno , they can skip the word and take another word.. we waited for quite a long time due to we are the last two station of the whole trip.... During the waiting period, i and my friends all played the charade of course with those frens from other stations. We had quite a fun time acting and laughing and drawing... wow time flies when you are having fun!

the primary kids were so enthu.... we are so nervous.... once we asked them to sit down we started the game... omg the kids were so enthu but then we meet the DIFFICULT part... the words are hard for them.... however good thing is that we got enough words for them to play...my god i had to double check that the word they know then can give them during the limited time they have omg this realli test their luck .... i felt sorry for the first grp which get some hard words that she had to skip skip n skip...omg i think good thing that we added a lot of stupid n easy words the day before ( the day before , due to lack of words we then add stupid words in) that the words that saved them n earned points.... phew....

After the event ended, we all split out n went home to search for FOOD!

When u are in NEWater, although there is no food , but there sure is plenty of water provided...haha...